Episode 25: What Do You See?

 Just Two Cousins Chattering!! 

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Hey y'all. Welcome to Jess Cause Podcast. I'm Jay. And this is Katina. How y'all doing? What's up, people? I missed y'all. I know you did. Yeah, I just don't know. I missed you. It's good to be back. It's good to be back. It's good to be back. And Jay, welcome back. Welcome back. Thank you, girl. Thank you, girl. I am back and in full effect. Let me tell y'all, I appreciate all the love, all the support, all of the prayers, all of the encouragement, all of that great stuff. But let me just put it this way: God was making me new. He was making me over you, okay? And so for them to meet. I just give God the glory. Thank you so much. And I don't know if y'all can hear, but we probably stand a little bit right there. We probably sound never sound clear. Okay. But I so that's a shout out. That's a shout out to um my future sister-in-law, Faith. All right. She um blessed us with some with the mic. And so she called it my my goodwill gift. Come through. And so, girl, thank you. Okay. So I appreciate that. Me and Tina appreciate that. But y'all, it's been a journey. So I'm not going to talk about it. Tina, you want to tell them what we're talking about today? Or you want me, you know, look, the people want to hear from you. They ain't hearing from you. They hear you. Tina. Listen, Tina's been holding it down, y'all.

SPEAKER_00 1:37

What the people here from you?

SPEAKER_01 1:39

She's been holding it down, y'all. She's been doing her biggest. You know, Tina don't be wanting to talk and get on camera and stuff a lot. Baby, she done been out in y'all algorithms, okay? Um, so today, what do you see? That is the topic for today. So, look, you wanna hang out? Wait for it. You probably should tell me. I think you should wait for it. You probably should. Yeah, yeah. Because this one sounds like it's gonna be a good one. It's gonna be a good one, I do believe. All right, y'all. Here I come. I know y'all missed it. We was gone for a week. Yeah, we did. Here I come. Oh you had a birthday. If you had a birthday, happy birthday. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday, happy, happy, happy birthday to you. I'ma do it two times because we missed last week. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you. If you had a birthday, if you had a birthday, if you had a birthday, happy birthday. Yo, the remixes have been incredible. They never come the same. They always going back. She reaches back, she reaches back and do a remix, remix. Right, that's that 90 something. But like, you know, we can get to any type of way. That's a little freestyle. But no, happy birthday to you. Um, we sorry we missed you last week. Right. But happy birthday if you had one last week, if you had one this past week. Happy birthday, and we are so thankful that God allowed you to see another birthday. And we got one birthday, y'all, that if we don't shout her out, we're gonna have to hear her mouth because she is the whole reason why we're together. Okay, and that is to root. Better say so. She's her birthday, girl. Saturday. This past Saturday. Happy birthday. Yes, girl. Happy birthday. That April, what was it? April 25th. Let me make sure I'm very clear because I don't have time for her mouth, girl. But you know what? It's granted. It's granted. It is. Like you said, this wouldn't have happened had it not been for her. So shout out to you, cousin. Happy birthday. We love you. We do. All right, y'all. Tina, what you feeling like? What that mood like? Let me see. I feel good, Jay. I feel good today. Um, we're back. I'm excited because we're back, you know. Um, the week, you know, going without doing um a drop or whatnot. It was different, but also it allowed time for you to rest. But then I also got some rest as well. So I feel re-energized. I feel excited. I feel like this is the opening door to something brand new. Yeah. Like we're like, like this is like this is a new season. Like you know how you have to, you know how like before you go into the new season, things like kind of taper off and they cut off and they shut down for a minute, and then you go into your new, that's what I feel like this is. Yeah, so I feel like, you know how like you watching a show or whatever, and season one is done. Yeah, that's good. And you take a little intermission. You take a little intermission, and then when you come back, it's a whole new season, but you ain't you ain't too far off from the last season.

SPEAKER_02 5:16

Right, right, right.

SPEAKER_01 5:17

But it's new, it's fresh. I like that. That's how I feel. And I feel like we knew, we fresh.

SPEAKER_02 5:22

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 5:23

And everything about us is fresh. Like um, the way that we see and hearing, walking, talking. Oh, walking. Come on. We're gonna get it to you. I'm gonna get out to you in a little bit, y'all. You gotta get it. But I'm gonna get to you in a little bit, y'all. So yeah. So I agree with that. That's what's up. I love it. I love it. I love it. And let's go. So my mood is I got I'm walking in newness. Oh, that's good. I'm walking in newness, and I feel amazing. That's good. I feel awesome because I feel like I've been made over. Oh, we're right. And so I know that you all are probably like, why where Jay been? What the world Jayden had going on? But Jay got a new hip. Okay. Oh. And a new walk. Okay. A new hip, y'all. Okay, period. Because this girl was like, yeah, we're going running. We're gonna, yeah, I'm gonna be an acrobat. We we gonna hike, we're gonna eat, we're gonna ride bikes, we we're gonna do all of this. All of that, all of that. Yeah. I'm gonna join the circus and jump out the acrobat, y'all. She's already trying this stuff too, y'all. That's why I said I'll be having her because she is wide open through here. Supposed to be taking it. This girl is literally running. Yeah. Literally. So But you know something? You know something? It's that little push that people give you that really love you. That's what's good. Like, even if they know that you can't get up and get something, they be like, go and get it yourself. Like, it's that push to be like, I don't know. No, seriously. Um I am grateful. I am just in a place of just being grateful. And like I said, I got a new hip. Um, it has been years, years and years and years and years of pain from an injury that I got when I was young. Like I was in like maybe the fifth, sixth grade, well, in the fifth grade, and then got the um surgery when I was in the sixth grade. And of course, like we're so far from the sixth grade now that you know other things took place. And so these are some things that we'll that you know, we'll talk about as we get to the main topic. But um, it's just it's remarkable to know that God can change your situation with a snap of a finger that you have been dealing with the pain that you have been suffering with, that you've been dealing with, and it may not be in your body, it may be in your spirit, it may be in your heart, it may be um, it may be in your organs, something that you wasn't aware of, or what have you, and you just been dealing with it. And we're not talking about 10 years, y'all, we're talking about 20 plus years, whatever the whatever it may be. You know, calcification is real, and so when calcification takes place, it's something that that forms over top of. And so you may have some, you may have masked it and didn't realize it was there, or you ignored it, or you got used to the pain. And so, because you got used to the pain and the discomfort, it became a way of your life, and you thought it was always supposed to remain there. But how many know a God that will come and that can and that will always, that always will, in a blink of an eye, will turn that situation, turn that pain to power. Come on, you better preach. That's good. Okay, that's a word. Turn that pain to power, turn that um that heartache to hope. Like God will do things in you that you can't even imagine, and then he will remind you and show you that, yeah, it was me. I did that in a miraculous way, in a supernatural way. He will show you, he will show you that no, that was me, that had nothing to do with you. Oh, girl, that's good. You feel real good. I know. Check in with your people, y'all. This is when we do the little temperature check. And so, what we just did, we checked in with each other. We wanted to see where we are right now. So, check in with your people, make sure they're good, and then take the time to listen to them. Take the time to listen to them, and then maybe you can give them something. Give them a nugget, give them a jewel to help them along their way as they do for you as well. All right, y'all. Y'all, this show is about to be fire. It's about to be fire, it's about to be fire because it's already warm. Listen to Tina, y'all. All right, y'all. It's your favorite, it's my favorite, it's my nephew put's favorite, it's everybody's favorite. This is W W Y D. Let me tell y'all, this is where you get the opportunity. This is your segment. This is when it's about you. You get to write in, you can email us, jesscas80s at gmail.com. You can DM us on all of these socials because we all over it. Everywhere. Okay. And ask your question. Ask for advice. If it's something you want us to talk about, we can talk about it. We're gonna talk about it. We gonna talk about it because we like to chat, honey. We cousin chatter, baby. So let me tell you, that's what WWYD is. And today, this um WWYD comes from Paul, Paul S. And Paul S says, I am a father and I have three children. I struggle with maintaining my relationship with them as an absent father, which was out of my control. No blame game here. Just want to maintain and build a relationship with each of them authentically where we are right now. WWYD.

SPEAKER_02 11:51

Paul.

SPEAKER_01 11:52

Yeah, that's um, that's a tough place, but at least Paul is um accountable. He's he sounds as if he's accountable and very much aware of the situation, and he's dealing with it in the way that like as as cars are dealt dealt to him, you know. He said no blame game, that's important too. And I'm sure that the children pay attention to that, that um that he has that reverence to what happened, and that he's not pointing fingers, he's just saying, hey, look, this is what happened, and I have no control over it, and this is where we are right now. What I would say to Paul is that I feel like you're already in the proper um, in the proper motion and movement and moving forward with those relationships. And what I would say is that you said you have three children. You have three children with three different personalities, and I would deal with each of those personalities according to who they are, give them what they need according to who they are right now, and come to um come to an understanding or a compromise. And listen, I don't know, I don't know how old your children are, but this is the thing a lot of times when kids are younger, they're more understanding than when they're older, because when they're older, they have thought through the whole situation to try to figure it out like why this, why that, why you didn't take the time to do this, da da da, why has it been so long since I've heard from you? There's all these different questions, but the only thing that you can do right now, Paul, is is focus on your now, focus and and try to get your children to understand that what you are trying to do is in your now, you know, that you can't go back and change the past, the things of the past. So focus on the now. And again, something that was very important that I I just mentioned is that your kids are gonna have different personalities and they're gonna be accepting in different ways or not accepting, right? And you have to be okay with that, Paul. But what you can't do, even if they're not accepting, what you cannot do is allow that to bring you down or bring you to a place to where you condemn yourself. Right. That is a choice that they have made. We all have our own will and we all have our own choices that we make. So all you can do from this point is try to move forward and to make good with where you are. Because here's the thing we most of us, when we're parents, we have more days behind us than we do in front of us, ahead of us. So you need to function accordingly. Do those things that you can do with with your children right now, spend the time that you can spend with them right now. Yeah, you're not gonna be if they're if they're not, you know, small children and you can't take them to the park, okay, that's fine. But y'all can go and sit down and eat dinner and have a conversation. You know, um, y'all have got you have gatherings at your house, cookouts, or whatever, what have you. Have them to come over to the cookouts, but it might be that because there has been such a lapse in time that they might want to spend more time with you alone. So be understanding of that. So if you have a significant other that's in your life, you know, that needs to be a discussion that you have, and that there's an agreement and an understanding that hey, look, I need to spend this time with um with my kids. However, what I'm not telling you to do is that you sacrifice what you have for your children because of where you are. But what I'm saying is just get an understanding and work to get to that point to where there is um a full agreement and a and a joining and an understanding, a likeness in mind. Give them the opportunity and the time to get to know you, and you take the time to get to know them. And again, like I said, it might be that they decide, you know, one, two, three, whatever. It could be that they decide that, you know, that their anger is greater than the forgiveness that they have in their heart. And if that's the case, then pray about it and pray for them and don't hate them or be angry with them because they're not accepting of you right now, because God can do and move all things, and sometimes that's exactly what it takes. It takes the time and the healing of God. So always put prayer in the midst of everything, even if they're accepting to you, because you still are gonna come upon situations that there's gonna be disagreements because we all disagree as human beings, and it's the same thing as with a parent to child to children. There's gonna be things that they don't understand that you're gonna have to explain. Give them an explanation, explain to them what it is, tell them the truth. Kids respond to you and they respect you when you give them truth, they can deal with that, but it's when you try to hide things and you try to camouflage things where there become issues. So give them the truth, and as you said, keep things from a point of blame because what you don't want to do is to point a finger and make them feel like, oh, well, it didn't happen because you know they didn't want me to be close with this one, or this one didn't want me to be close with that one. And when I say this one and that one, I'm talking about the parents because sometimes the parents use the kids as vices when it comes to these relationships, and that is not fair to the children. That's not fair. So be honest with them, be honest with them, pray over the situation, respect their feelings, um, and just take the necessary time to get to know who they are and allow them to get to know who you are. I think that's dope, Tina. I think that is beyond dope. Um, what I would say to you, Paul, first of all, thank you so much for writing in, and I think you're even brave to uh to open up and talk about this because a lot of men just don't. They just try to navigate through, figure it out, and you know, just don't even ask for any type of advice, help, or anything like that. So that's the first thing I say. Um, Paul, love and grace is gonna be your friend. That's good. If you are leading in love, no matter how old they are, where they are, if you're leading in love and you allow yourself grace and allow them grace as God has graced us, then your outcome is gonna be more than you could ever expect, is what's gonna happen. Because when you step into this place with nothing but love in your heart and gracing your spirit, that means that you are open. That means that when you are presented with those questions or those topics or those different things that may be tough to talk about, you've you're already leading, excuse me, you're already leading in love and you and your spirit is already full of grace. So therefore, your response and how you all navigate through this is gonna be marinated in it. And the thing about it is it's not meant to be perfect because none of us are perfect, um, and we can't expect perfection out of each other because that's something that you will always be disappointed if you expect perfection out of someone else. And so therefore, you go in understanding that yes, I'm flawed, and yes, you're flawed. That's that's what this is. Even with you, don't even have to speak about the the mother. That's right, you don't even that's not even a conversation, that's not even relevant, it's not relevant right now at all. The only relevance is your relationship with your children, and so if that's that's your focus, then nothing there the enemy can't get in. That's right. Because if your focus is my relationship with you all, when something comes up, and no matter how you feel about the mother, no matter how what's happened in the past, and it may be more than one mother, we don't know, right? But um, no matter how things have transpired in the past, God has graced us. I I I read that you um that you said it was something that was out of your control. So if it was out of your control, then you couldn't have changed the outcome either way. That's right. Because it was gonna be what it was gonna be.

SPEAKER_00 20:34

That's right.

SPEAKER_01 20:34

And so therefore, God knew you were gonna be in this space and in this time right now, and that your children was gonna be in this space in this time right now at whatever age they are, and that the healing was gonna come right now. Right. Because guess what? And what's so remarkable, and this is my opinion, but healing started with you, you're the father, and you're reaching out, you're asking, how do I navigate this? What do I do? So that means that God has spoken to you first. That's right. That's right. So the healing is is starting with you, and so I I'll just say to you now, Paul, to forgive, forgive the mothers. For I don't care what it was, I don't care what the situation was, I don't care what the opposing forces was, I don't care why um it was out of your control, I don't care what it was, I don't even care if it's something that you did, right? It doesn't matter. That's right. Forgive, forgive yourself, that's right, and forgive the mothers. Because at the end of the day, we do what we know to do. Or we fight or flight, we do whatever we feel like we have to do in that moment, in that time as a part of our survival. And everybody's survival doesn't look the same. That's right. So if your survival don't look the same, guess what? You are too independent. Individual people having an experience that is not the same. Right. Y'all might have been in that relationship together, but y'all weren't having the same experience in this relationship. That's right. The only common denominator that came out of this relationship were these beautiful children. And now you just maintain that. So, Paul, you're you are doing what you have to do. God bless you. God leads you. God guide you and to wholeness on every end for you and for your children. Amen. Amen. That sounds like a like that sounds like a decreed prayer or a decreed demand in the spirit. Amen. Yeah. Well, you have us praying for you, Paul. And we do um trust God and do believe that the situation will come out and that it will come out and it will come out favorable for you. Just like Jay said, if you're leading with um love and compassion and forgiveness, you will be the one that's on top because who can deny that? No, but turn that away. So continue to do what you're doing, continue to move forward, move forward, and move forward in the courage that God has already given you to do. So we bless you, man. We bless you. We bless you on today. Go ahead, Paul. All right, Tina. Here we go with this main topic. And you know how the Lord just be dropping it down in our lap. So whoever got it, go first. But this what do you see? What do you see? Well, Jay, listen. This is here's the thing. I know that with everything that you've had going on, um that the Lord has been speaking. I know it. I know it without a shadow of a doubt, because he told me so. I know that there is something that you have got to tell the people, something that is going to help the people. Um, there's some people that are probably stagnant uh in decisions that they have to make. And I I know that there's something you gotta tell the people. I know it because God told me that you do. So I feel as if um I'm gonna give you leadway and I'm gonna say, listen, take the floor. Here she go, y'all. Tell talk to these people. You have had an experience, Jay. Yeah, you have had an experience that most people do not know of. Yeah. So talk to the people, let them know how real God is. God is so real, y'all. Okay, Tina. So, yes. Um the topic is what do you see? I have had an experience. Um, I spoke about it a little bit in the beginning about going through this surgery. What y'all have to understand, and and I'ma I'm gonna bring it around, what you all have to understand is dealing with constant, everyday, almost excruciating pain for years. Like years. No relief to where medication, and I'm gonna talk about medication too, so please stay tuned for that. Where medication was not working, your body gets immune to it because you're trying to correct something that medication can't correct. You are masking symptoms that medication can only do for a certain amount of time, and then it's like your body is like, oh yeah, we used to that now, so I'm still gonna because you didn't you didn't meet the root of the problem.

SPEAKER_02 26:01

Right.

SPEAKER_01 26:01

So the root of the problem is still there, right? So that's yeah, that medication is good for a moment, and then that's how you get increased dosage. That's how you get other people where people are hooked on things and um they beg they develop a habit and all these different things. And so I was determined that I wasn't gonna do that. I knew that I was dealing with something that everybody gave me a no. Every surgeon, every doctor gave me a no. They say you are too young to do a hip replacement because you were outliving. You at that time, I think hip replacements um lasted like 10 years, and now with modern technology, it's like 20 to 25 years, but every doctor gave me a no. That's they wanted to give me a pain shot, all these things to mass the issue, to mass the problem, and y'all, I am sitting here and Tina will witness this. My x-rays for my hip. That's something different. If we were on camera and you could show that picture, people would be frightened. It looked like something out of medieval times, like wet, like some type of weapon, like made out of stone. Like, I don't know, but it was so bad to the point that my my femur, like my hip in the socket was turned all the way around backwards, facing my behind, behind me.

unknown 27:46

That is crazy.

SPEAKER_01 27:47

Is how severe that this was, and I've been walking around like this for years, getting no. That's crazy. So I gotta do better. The healthcare system, yes, and the doctors, yes, have to do better, have to do better, and I will tell you, God will use whomever He chooses to use to get you where you need to be for your healing, and it'll be at the right time and at the right moment. Okay, I have been to I don't know how many doctors, but it took my father-in-law going through his hip replacement with his doctor, and his doctor was the blessing to give the yes. Wow. Because my in-laws, one thing I know a lot of y'all don't know my in-laws, but my in-laws is gonna go too for nail for you, okay? And especially if it's something that they know that you need and they can figure out how to get in and get it for you, and get it to you, that you'll be better, they're gonna do it. That that's just who they are, and so all it was was my um was them telling them that, okay, doc, I got a daughter, she needs to talk to you, she need help, she needs the same surgery, she needs help, blah, blah, blah, blah. And everything that from there was history. It's somebody else to open the door. Uh somebody else to open the door. And like I said, God will use whomever. Won't he? He will use whomever. And one thing we have to realize is that things are predestined. So just because you didn't know when it was gonna happen, right, didn't mean that God didn't know. That's right. Because He are He knows all things. And so got the yes. How about this? That doctor didn't even do the surgery. Wow. He was the blessing for the yes. Wow. But the blessing to perform it. That's good. That's good. You said something. You said something right there. Uh, what a lot of people don't realize is sometimes God will send people to you just to speak a blessing over you and just to unlock a blessing. To unlock it. To unlock. It might not be for any other purpose besides for them to come to you. It's just like how Samuel would go to the king and he would go to he would go to these these kings and these people just to he went to David to unlock the blessing. Sometimes somebody gotta speak something over. Come on now. It's the yes. Sometimes they gotta come, they come bringing the yes. Yes. Don't worry about what it looked like. That's it. Don't worry about what it looked like. Come on here, sis. Come on here. Tell, tell, tell, tell, tell. Because I'm gonna tell you, God gave that one to give the yes, and he apologized. As soon as my first appointment with him, he looked at me, he said, first, I want to apologize to you for every doctor that told you no, because your quality of life was more important than how many surgeries you would have had to have throughout your life. He was like, So I apologize. He said, because I know you've been in pain. He said, This is a very, very challenging case. It's very, you know, severe. And he was like, Um, don't mean I can't do it. He was like, I can do it. He said, but it's challenging. And um he said, so I'm giving you a yes today. He said that to me. And I remember feeling the anointing all over my body because I've been that's what you I've been waiting for. Okay, and so think things started to happen, and y'all, I'm I'm going somewhere. I'm gonna, I'm really gonna bless you today because God really has blessed me through all of this. So remember this. I'm gonna give it to you every now and then. What do you see? I'm gonna give it to you every now and then along this journey because it's important to ask yourself what you see. So the surgery was supposed to happen in December, it didn't happen. Here's where you get tested on your trust in God, on your belief when God told you a thing, and it don't look like that thing is coming, or it looks like the enemy is trying to sniff it out, or trying to or trying to give you a um a cancellation, or or trying to, what is it, innerject the bl um, interject and steal the blessing. But when you are a believer, and when and I'm not talking about a surface believer, when you are a believer and you know God in a space that can't nobody take God away from you because you've lived it. You've lived it. He showed up for you over and over and over again. You can't you can't give the glory to the universe, you can't give the glory to crystals and and astrology and all these things. This I'm talking about when you know God beyond a shadow of a doubt that you know that that was your father. And it couldn't be nobody else. So when that when you know him in that place and he tells you yes, you hold on to it. I don't care what it looks like around you. And Tina was very influential during that time, just like a few others, but God will send you blessings to encourage you and say, okay. And you know what God told you? Don't care what's going on. Because God knows all things, He knows the things that we don't know, can't see, never even could imagine. He knows it. Amen. So it didn't happen. And it was like some little flute things that was like, well, we can't because of this, but if this is right, then we can. So that was right, and then they still didn't. And I said, Okay, God, I'm listening, I'm paying attention. What's up?

SPEAKER_02 34:04

Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_01 34:05

Like, like now I'm like, okay, what's up? And now what's what, January? Now and I'm like, okay. And we started in December, right? It was December. Yeah, so we started in in November. We started the podcast in November, supposed to get the surgery in December. And then come January, I'm like, okay, well, God, I know what you said, so it is what it is. Still waiting to hear. What do you see? What do you see? And I'm listening and I'm watching, and I'm listening, and I'm watching. And round about February, God said, This is why. My surgeon that was just there to give me a yes, but wasn't given the yes to perform it.

SPEAKER_02 34:55

Mm-mm-mm.

SPEAKER_01 34:57

Was take it, he was an indefinite leave of absence. Wow. Due to medical. Wow. Indefinite leave of absence. But watch guy. Cause in no because the people that don't know guy would have been like, oh my God, there was my optun, it's gone. That's right. Talk about it. That's right. Watch Guy. The call was like, we're gonna get you scheduled with another surgeon. Your surgeon had about 70 cases, and we gotta spread them out. You'll be receiving a call from their office soon. I start rejoicing. God, you saw what I didn't see. Amen. He wasn't well to do it. Amen. But he was a blessing to give me the guess. Yes. Okay, God, I'm seeing you. I know what you're doing. I get it. I'm paying attention. The appointment came with the surgeon. And I even talked to you about it. I'm like, I don't, you know, I don't know what this is gonna look like. I'm just gonna tell him what it was said with the other surgeon, da da da da. But God gave me a piece about it. Amen. God said, I'm the author, I'm the artist. That's right. I'm the creator of this. That's right. You trust me, and then trust me. That's right. I got there, and the man was talking all quick. He was younger than the other man, and all this, and I'm looking at him, and he just boom, boom, boom. This is the way he's talking. Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. And I was like, okay, still no apprehension. I'm just paying attention. And so I said, okay, this man act like, did he do this in his sleep? I'm like, okay. So this can be good or bad. So this can be good or bad. My spouse is like, look, he look, he just to the point. He just wanna want to take care of what he can take care of, and that's it. Right. So I'm like, okay, I hear you. I'm going to pray though. Right. And so um I say that to say what ended up happening. Oh, Tina. I am trying not to be emotional. What ended up happening was God said, I'm not gonna give you the old. My God. Because you have dealt with this all these years. I'm gonna give you the new. I'm gonna give you who I've been preparing for you. Come on, that's all right. I found out that this new surgeon is a renowned surgeon. This new surgeon got accolades after accolades, professor at the university. He's teaching his he has students, future doctors watching him in surgery. Wow. Because this is it's a line. That was another thing, but I didn't find this out and say after the surgery was over. It is a line waiting list to get to him. Wow. Oh my God. And I walked right through the door. Good gracious. Won't the Lord take you to the front of the line? To the front of the line. The last shall be first. And the first shall be last. He took me to the front of the line. Come on. Because that call came in February. I had my surgery just in April. That quick. It was just like that. And he was truly the blessing.

unknown 38:37

Amen.

SPEAKER_01 38:38

He was the one that God had wrapped up, sealed up, ready to go. Amen. What do you see? So that's that's the part leading up to it. And then you get there. So then God will do an amazing thing for you to where He has given you vision. He has shown you where He's taking you to, what He's gonna do for you. And many of us get confused because we think it's supposed to happen on our time. Come on. Or we say, or it's supposed to happen right, right, right, right about it. But you don't realize that it's a process and you don't realize that God is the author of time and God don't see time. Because He is the author of time. So even if He has to add time because we make our own decisions and do the little stupid stuff that we do. I almost cussed. Do the little stupid stuff that we do because the stuff that we do is just ridiculous. Like we set ourselves off course so many times because we're trying to see what ain't there. Come on, come on. How can you look upon something that is not there? God ain't even told you, and you and you believe in it as if it was there. If you're trusting what God is telling you, then the only thing you can see is what the promise is. The only thing that you can see is what the truth is. That's good. No matter what the chaos is around you, or what the different obstacles come that are around you, you only see God. So, y'all, I went into that surgery that day, day of surgery. We at day of surgery, and I went in there and I said, God, I'm looking for you. Oh, we this is about to be good. It's already been good. I said, I'm looking for you. My eyes are fixed, my eyes are open everywhere we go. We talk about it all the time, Tina. We talk about how I got to see God in the midst. That's right. I got to see him. I got to know that I am on track and where I'm supposed to be, and that I'm hearing and I'm hearing clearly, that I'm seeing and I'm seeing clearly. That I'm walking and I'm walking straight. I'm not walking quick. I'm not walking off. I'm walking the straight path. I gotta know this. Right. Tina, I step in that bed and I'm laying in that bed. You come in, we pray, you pray, all this, and I'm like, okay, God, I'm ready. Let's do this. Let's, you know. And there is a visitation. Hallelujah. There's this woman. Her face is glowing. For most women, when I tell you this, you're gonna you're gonna say, oh, yeah, I understand what you mean. It felt it looked like she had bronze all over her face. That's the glow that she had. And it wasn't like a white glow, it was a bronzy, goldish glow on her face. Yes, like the glory. And she looked at me. You are the blessing, is what she said to me. And I laughed and I said, Oh, thank you. She said it again, you are the blessing. And at this point, you got my full attention, God, because I know this ain't no person. And then she says, You are gonna be alright. You are gonna be okay.

SPEAKER_02 42:08

Amen.

SPEAKER_01 42:10

She comes around to the side of my bed as though she's gonna show me something. And I tell her, and she's like, because I asked her, I said, Well, you can come. I was like, come here. Because she was at the foot of my bed. At the foot of my bed. And I was like, come right. And she was like, Yeah. The person she came in with left. She walked around, mind you, it was people everywhere back there. And she ended up in there with me by my by ourselves. Me and my spouse and her. And she shows me her name. Her name is Angel. Oh wow. She tells me, she said, I prayed before I came this morning. My Lord. That God lead me, guide me, anoint my hands, anoint my mouth, anoint my feet, that I do, that I walk, that I go, that I touch, whatever I do, whatever I say prayer. Yes, that He is in the midst and that He is doing it. So basically she's saying, I sacrifice me and say, God, you operate through me, is basically what she's saying. And then y'all, y'all gotta catch this. But the woman's last name was Bogley. And my client is Bagley. So the O and the A was off. And I'm looking, I'm like, okay, God, like this is like really, you know. But the Lord would do things to let you know that it's Him. Yes, He will. He will let you know, and He will give you that connective, that connectivity to say, okay, God, only you can do this. That's right. This has to be you. Because this people talk about coinciden coincidence and um And happenstance and blah blah blah. No. Not no such thing. No. No such thing. It's ordained, or it's not. That's right. That's what it boils down to. So, y'all. This woman, she came, she said what she had to say, and she looked me in my face before she left, and she said, You are gonna be alright. And she walked out and I did not see her again. My Lord. I didn't see her again. I looked for her, and I didn't see her again. And the Holy Spirit, I knew that I wouldn't have asked for. Because they probably would have been like, who was it? Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. So I already know. When you know what you know, what you know, you know what you know, what you know, and you take you take what you take what you take, what God gives you, don't question it, and you keep on. The problem that we have is when God shows us and we see a thing, and when we see him for real, because it's what do you see? When you see God for real, why would you question it? You better say so. Why would you try to analyze it and be analytical, dissect it? Come on. God gives you a visitation, God shows up on your behalf. Why are you trying to fact check him? Come on. Why are you trying to treat him as though he is an experiment? He is a science, scientific hypothesis. Come on. That's not who God is. God is who he says he is, he is the I am. And so why are we trying to make sure that he is real? Or trying to make sure that how could you even try to do that? You can't try to make sure that God is real. God is just real. Come on. Because you will speak, you will waste your whole entire life trying to trying to fact check it. Cause you can't. You can't do it.

SPEAKER_02 46:03

Girl, she's so good.

SPEAKER_01 46:05

I know y'all. And I I'm coming around, I'm coming around. Take your time. I'm coming around. I'm coming around the Mayberry bush. I had nothing but peace when that lady left. And uh, I'm awake. I know everything that's going on. Uh, they get getting ready to get me up and there. I never felt that because I'm pretty sure they had me on, like I was on, I was already on the Jesus high. So whatever they put in my IV was gonna be what it was. Because I was already like, oh Lord, you got me for real. I ain't worried about nothing. It is okay. Um I was awake all the way through the OR. When I got to the OR, first of all, before I even left, like the little, I guess it would, what would you call it? Pre-ops, whatever. Um, it was when I first got in there, it was like hardly nobody in there. And then when I look up, all of these people are everywhere, Katina. Everywhere, just because they were everywhere in all of these different scrubs, blue, green, this. I'm like, where are all these people come from? And I say to the man, I'm like, okay, where did all these people come from? What what what are they doing? Like, what is happening? Right. And he said they're here for surgery. Um, I said, okay. I said, um, for surgery. I said, so is this a hub? Like for surgeries or whatever. You know it had to be a lot of people for you to say, is this a hub? Yes. I was like, is this a hub? And he was like, um, I guess. Like, I don't how how do you not know? He said, I guess. So then it started to become evident to me that they are here for you. All of them were doing something in relationship to the preparation of me going into surgery. Then they started coming in like by twos and threes, and like they would just come. And I'm like looking like, okay, like all of these people for this surgery, I was like, okay, all right, like, Jay, you know, you spoiled, you might be fully asserted right now. So let's not think like that. Yeah, I get to the I get to the OR. All of them people that I saw before I got to the OR, it was them and it was more people. And I'm like, all of these people, and I remember standing in my head, I'm like, this is a lot of people in this in here. And this one man was like, he said, I'ma be with you. Give me a second, I work. I'm sorry. He looked at me, he says, I'ma be with you. He said, I'm gonna be with you the whole time. He said, I'll be right here when you wake up. He was on my left when he started talking to me. And when they moved me over, and he said, Um, I'll be here with you when you wake up. And he was on my right side. And I'm trying to remember because I don't remember if he came to my right side. No, he didn't. He wasn't on my right side until I woke up. So um he told me he was gonna be with me, heard his voice, and of course, you know what happens when surgery, you just drive into the best sleep of in your life. And then when I woke up, I saw him, and I'm looking at him, and then he was like, and I'm just like, hey, you know, that type of thing. I was just looking at him like, what is happening? And I start, I started wiping my eyes because it was like something was in my eye. What do you see? And I'm wiping my eye, and he said, No, don't, don't, you, don't use that. Use this. He gives me like a stack of cotton um to use for my eye. And I said, okay, and I said, Where is everybody? And he says, We're done. Wow. Just like that. And I look at him. And he was like, it went great, like, just we done what we need to do, we're done. And it wasn't a whole bunch of conversation. It wasn't the only thing that he said, this is gonna be a long journey. Um, when and I guess I understood later why he said that, but I think I went to sleep in the midst of that transport. But he was like, this is gonna be a long journey. So it was from one end of the hospital all the way to the other, and I never saw him again. Wow. Wow, I don't know who he was. The people you never saw the people again. I never saw Angel again. You never saw the people, no, and you never saw that man again. No, and when I from from that moment went through that transport, and when I opened my eyes again, I was in the recovery section, and the first person I saw was my surgeon. That was like, hey, it went great. He was all excited, it went so much better than what I expected. Wow, that's amazing. He was like, it was um, he was like, it just went great. He and I said, thank you, and he was like, no problem, you know. Oh my god, I was just like, you the man. He was like, you're a rock star, you know. And that was a journey, and then of course, my care team and everything was amazing. So I say all of that, and I know that was a long story, but I pray that it helped someone, I pray that it blessed someone. Because when you believe what you see in your spirit, say so. Say so. Not what you witness in your natural, but what you see in your spirit. When you see and believe what you see in your spirit, God will manifest it into your natural and he will confirm it, and that will become your witness. My Lord, girl, that is a lot said. Something that you go through with for a long period of time, God turns it around for your good in a short period of time. I am in recovery, I feel amazing. This just happened, what a couple of weeks ago, and it's like I feel brand new every day. The Lord is just healing me, and that's another thing. When God tells you that He's gonna heal you, you better understand that the way God heals you, come on, talk about it, is the way you accept your healing. Come on, talk about it. You are not the healer, come on, so because you're not the healer, you don't know how that's gonna be performed. You better give understanding that. One person, God may say, take up your bed and walk, and they just walk out of it. Right. Another person, it might be a process. Come on, it might be a process to your healing. It might be a surgery, it might be a surgery. Come on, and the surgery ain't necessarily for the problem. Come on, the surgery is for your spirit, it's for your relationship. That's the surgery is for your is for your betterment. Yeah, yeah, yeah. The surgery is for your Shelby. The surgery is for your ministry, the surgery is for you to to be in a new place in newness. Because look, the whole all that old things have passed away and new things are made new. Come on, that's good, girl. That's good. Let me say it the right way. Old things have passed away, and behold, all things are made new. Come on, that's all right. And so here's the thing when you stand in that place and you say, God, I trust what I see in my spirit, then it means you're saying I trust God to do whatever it is that He's gonna do in the natural. Come on, and you don't try to be the author of that story. Come on, you don't try to be the Don't need your help. No, you you can't Picasso that come you can't do that. Sometimes you really gotta stand by what you say and what you believe. It's the faith, it's the faith, and sometimes it's a walk, it's not a marathon. Oh, we could gracious, you talking good. I hope y'all are catching it. Sometimes it might be a little bit of pain, but it ain't no, it don't even hold a match to the pain that you've endured in the past. This pain has purpose. Oh, we that's good. This pain has purpose. Every painful step that I had that I have taken without the pain medicine because it's the ran out. God said, I prepared you for that before you even got here. Say so. Say so. That pain is purpose. So when you're walking and you're feeling it, it becomes, you know, it don't even feel the same no more. It feels like you're striving. Come on. It's start, you're striving and you're pressing towards the mark of the high calling. Come on here. Come on, it's it's your next. You gotta be in a place to where you're not afraid to step into your next. That's all right. That's all right. Ooh, wee, that's all right. Lord, have mercy, girl. Let me tell you something. For the people that are out here today, that there's somebody out here that's been struggling. You know, they have been struggling with the decision of they don't want to go through surgery, or they feel like, well, God is gonna heal me. God can heal me. God can heal you the way that He decides to heal you or that He desires. But what it really truly comes down to is your faith. Do you trust God enough to let Him do it His way? Or are you trying to tailor the situation to your way? Because you could be in your same situation stagnant because you are in the way, because you lack the full trust and the full faith in God that He can do it the way He chooses to do it. Sometimes we just got to get out the way. Move. Get out the way so that you can receive the purpose. She said, with every step of the pain that she had, every step and that pain, that new pain, because it was different, it was for purpose. It was for purpose because now with every step that she takes comes her healing. Yes. She is not in the same position that she was in before, or the same pain that she was in before. But this is healing pain. Yes. This is healing pain. I am healing. She's healing at this point so that she can move forth in her purpose, in the in the rest of all that God has to do for her in her life. Thank you, Lord. Everything else, all these things that God already had planned for you and set for you to do. It would be too hard for you to do those things in the same situation that you were currently in. But now God is trying to do a new thing. Yes. A new thing. You have to allow him to do it his way. He doesn't need help. No. He never needs our help. He doesn't need help. He needs obedience. He needs faith. He needs trust. That's all he needs. And then he will supply and come through with the promise. But he can't give you the promise if you don't hand him over those other things because those other things are your submission unto him. Yes. Submit to the Lord. Oh my God. And obey him. Obey him. Obey him because your hold up and being disobedient can prevent you from your blessing. Oh my God. If you obey him, you unlock the blessing and the purpose. And it gets to you quicker. Come on. Because you're not holding it up. Come on. How many times you said something earlier when you were talking about how the first doctor, because see, people would take this, a lot of people are taking things the wrong way. They're saying, Oh, well, it didn't happen, so it's not meant to happen. Um, maybe that was God telling me no. You said something that was very profound, and what you said was, it took the first doctor to open the door to give you your yes. God will use that. He will use whomever he decides to open the door to usher in a blessing. The Bible tells us that he will even use our enemies. He sure will. He will even use our enemies to bless us. So don't look at things that in the natural that it's necessarily uh uh some kind of sign that, oh, well, I shouldn't do this, I shouldn't move forward with this because um it looks this way. God didn't tell you how the whole story was going to be. He didn't tell you the details of the story, he gave you the promise, but he didn't tell you the details. Because had he told you the details, you would be somewhere trying to um manipulate things to look a kind of way, and it would be and it wouldn't it wouldn't be authentic. No, it wouldn't be authentic, it wouldn't be real, it wouldn't be God because your hands would be on it, and then at that point, then people start to take the glory away from God. Yeah, what you said is so profound. He sent one doctor to give the yes. Now that yes is in your chart, it is, it's in your chart, it's been recorded that somebody has already said this is necessary, it needs to be done. Yes, you have got the medical opinion to stand behind what it is that needed to be done. So, all that needed to happen from that point is for the next doctor, the next surgeon to come in and to look and say, Oh, well, the yes is already being given. We already know that this needs to be done. Now we just need to move forward. And that's why it was so quick for him. I was taking the quickness as him being like just nonchalant. No, it was quick for him because he already had everything that he needed. All he needed to do was just go in and perform it. Come on, the vision was already written. Say that. He just needed to carry it out. Say that. The plan was made. Sometimes there's stages. Yes, sometimes there's stages that we have to go through. Like you said, there's processes that we have to go through. There's processes that we have to go through in life daily. Yes, daily, daily. When you wake up, when you wake up out of your bed before you get to the point to where you are today, you woke up, you opened your eyes, prayerfully, you said, Thank you, Jesus. Yes. Then you got up. Yes. Then you had to do your hygiene and all that good stuff. There were so many things that had to be done before you even got to the point to where you put your clothes on. So many steps were made. It's a process. Things are a process. And we have to go through the process. So for all of that, what do you see? Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm. That's all right. That's all right. You better believe him. You better trust him at his word. Trust what he told you. See what it is that the promise is that he has you. See the promise and trust God. Trust that you can see what he's spoken. Yes. I know that's hard to do, but that's exactly what faith is. Faith is believing without seeing. Jesus told um, who was it? Jesus told Thomas, those that believe without seeing are blessed. Because Thomas was doubting. Doubting Thomas. He doubted. He said, I won't believe it unless I see it. Unless I put my hand on his uh unless I put my hand uh on his hand, I put my hand in his side, I won't believe it. I won't believe it. But Jesus told him, and Jesus made an appearance to him just so that he could tell him. And just so he could do those things. But sometimes it requires that you believe without seeing. And that's exactly what Jesus told him. Yeah, he gave him, he gave him some lead way, and he said, Okay, I'm gonna let you do that, and I'm gonna let you have that. But let me explain to you, it's the one that believes without seeing that is blessed. Oh my god, y'all, this is so amazing. This was so amazing, and it was so necessary just to hear about this divine visitation. And I and I hope you heard everything, and I hope that you understood what um was spoken, what was spoken here today, because there was several divine visitations in what she talked about. People that appeared that no longer appeared. Yeah, I didn't see them again. Names. There's a zillion names in this world. Names, names, understanding. But yours, yours is gonna be angel. And then you're gonna remind me of my client Bagley, Bagley. Zillions of names, and it just so happened that it's close to very similar to it. Very similar. And to me, it's like, God, I don't, I know what I know. And I ain't gonna give nothing else the glory for it. Come on. Nothing else. That's all right, nothing else. Because you can't tell me that somebody manufactured that that person and put that person there and made all these things correlate. No, you're not gonna do that to me. Because I know who my father is, glorify. And only he knows me inside out. God will speak to us however. Yes, however, he needs to speak to us to get our attention or whatever, or in the way that it's required for us to understand. It's divine. A lot of people don't get that. They struggle and they think that they have to hear the same way another person hears, or that they need to see the same way another person sees, or that they need to feel another way as another person. God doesn't deal, he deals with us with who we are as well individually. Individually. And he knows you inside and out. Yeah. So why would I deal with you the way that I deal with this 90-some-year-old bishop? Come on. Why am I gonna deal with you that way and you a 15-year-old or a 20-year-old or whatever, and maybe you a babe in Christ? Come on. Like I might have to I might have to break it down and make it a little bit simpler and plainer and plainer for you. That's right. In ways that you can understand. It's no different from a parent. That's right. All your children ain't the same. That's exactly right. So when you get ready to nurture them, when you get ready to chastise them, whatever, all of these things are the things that the father does to us. And he does it in a way that we understand and we know that it was him. Amen. You know when your mama then stepped in the building and then got you. You know when your daddy then came through and said, okay, your mama said you keep on tell your daddy. That's right. You know when these things have happened. You know when you've had these encounters. So I say to you, don't allow anyone to trick you out of your inheritance. That's good. That's good. That's good. That's good. That's it. That is it. There is no better way to end it than on that. Well, y'all, we back. We are back. We're in full effect. Today was very powerful. So we're just gonna leave it where it is. Let it marinate. What do you see? And we're gonna say that we're gonna live, laugh, and love. Y'all have a most blessed week. We love y'all.